Eli's Girl

Today was a little rough. This cold is really making Eli feel weak and bad compared to how much better he had been feeling. He rested all day today while me and the boys went looking for Christmas decorations. I'm hoping that by making the house seem festive it'll put us all in a better mood.

I finally got our portraits, from when we renewed our vows this summer, framed. I thought they turned out nice. It was kind of bittersweet to see all four of us in the picture. It was the first large portrait we ever had made as a family. A couple of years ago Eli told me he was afraid for us to take a picture like that because he thought it'd almost be like bad omen. It's amazing how so many comments that we have made to each other throughout our years together seem so poingant now. I can remember all the times I thought my life was too good to be true. Everything for us seemed to happen so reletively smoothly. We'd had our ups and downs, but truly no major challenges. And now this. Forgive me for sounding down, but right now, it's just how I feel. The look on Eli's face when I showed him our portrait today has me feeling sad. We received the DVD recording of our renewal ceremony a few days before Eli was hospitalized and I haven't even gotten up the nerve to watch it. It was such a special day our family.

While I was typing this little message I went back through some files on this computer and found a couple of pics from that day. Seeing them is actually making me feel a little better. I guess I just needed a little reminder of how special our relationship is. Lord knows I love this man so much. Everything's going to be okay. I just has to. Please continue to keep us lifted in prayer, as you can see, it's needed. Let me go downstairs and check on him and go get some rest. Thanks for reading my ramble. Kimberly