Eli's Girl

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hi everyone, I just want to go on ahead and put it out there:

2006 is going to be great year!

Last year, well before Elijah got sick, I told people that 2005 was an emotional year for me because we were celebrating our 10 year anniversary and renewing our vows. I was feeling extra mushy at times and people even teased me about it. I was so wrapped up in planning the service, writing our vows, and wondering what my new ring would look like. But that was last year and things have changed. The Alexander's spent New Year's Eve at church and brought in the new year with a prayer.

Elijah is feeling about as good as can be expected. He is getting tired of feeling uncomfortable and isolated (we're all so paranoid about getting him sick that we keep our distance). He knows that he's headed in the right direction, health wise, he's just ready to be there already. I'll be scheduling the final chemo tomorrow. Then we'll set up his time for his bone marrow transplant. That won't happen until the end of February. My dad will be back to help with the boys so I can help the big man down the final stretch.

Please keep him lifted in prayer. No, please keep us lifted in prayer. I was telling my uncle Mike that Elijah's spirit is better than mine. I am still a little bitter about all of this. I know life is not fair, I know God doesn't put anything on us we can not handle, I know this is God's will, I know that if I trust in the Lord everything will be okay, but I still have an attitude. I'm just going to have to work on that. I just needed to get that off my chest and put it out there because it's the truth.

Thank you so much for the phone calls, the wonderful Christmas cards and pictures. You all have some beautiful families. Hug the kids, kiss your spouses, tell them how much they mean to you because you just never know. When I went to the doctor's on Friday (because of that bad cold) I reluctantly ended up at the E-Care center I first took Eli to when we were trying to figure out why he was in so much pain. I walked past the chair my husband was sitting in when he told me he felt like he was dying. Being in that place brought back some strong memories I wish I didn't have. At the same time though I appreciated that place because if it wasn't for the doctor's honesty Elijah would have gone home instead of going to the hospital and he may not have made it through the night. But he did. He's still here and he's still fighting and we're going to make 2006 'da bomb! (smile)

Love ya much! Kimberly